Quicker than a millstone <\/p>\n\n\n\n
in an ocean with no bottom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The world disappears. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The sun and stars are gone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Where did the rug go?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Who clipped my wings?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When did love grow cold?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Who hears black hole screams?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
. . .<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Torn apart. You took everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In this foreign land, how can I sing?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Is this judgement? Is this vengeance?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve got this sinking feeling that this <\/p>\n\n\n\n
free fall to nowhere is the end of me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
. . .<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Plunged into nothing, face-first.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A vision of ghosts and memories.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
All, at first, are just an image, blurred.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The black is all the future offers me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
By the hand of the One<\/p>\n\n\n\n
who saved me, wrecked me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
loves me, chastised me, ruined me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
died for me, prunes me, and blessed me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIf you fail under pressure, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
your strength is too small.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So brace yourself for the free fall!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
. . .<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ripped apart what I thought I loved.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Stripped apart all that was enough.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What\u2019s left inside? A child scared to die.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s completely useless to try to fly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A free fall to nowhere from above.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
. . .<\/p>\n\n\n\n
After you\u2019ve destroyed<\/p>\n\n\n\n
what I once enjoyed,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
promise me you\u2019ll fill the void!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
. . . <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Torn apart. You took everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
From this foreign and unknown, I\u2019m returning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I felt the judgment. I felt the vengeance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve got this sinking feeling that this <\/p>\n\n\n\n
free fall to nowhere will revive me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ripped apart my insecurities.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Stripped apart my pride and idolatry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What\u2019s left inside? A man ready to die.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Let me fall into my hidden life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A free fall to nowhere will save me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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